Sigh

See la. I so pissed at ppl. Den now my pc pissed at me. Keeps turning off *poof* just like that. Aih...dunno y..Hopefully today it dun merajuk with me. Got work to do mah...aih...wanna listen to song also kenot mehhh....aihhh

Got numec project to do samo. Duno who the other 2 members. Den later monday got moral presentation. Where i think i'll be clicking the slides...as usual..hahaha

Then these few days have been sleeping at odd hours. then eating at odd hours. aih. everything sucks man!! Especially the internettttt

Bad dream....

I had a really bad dream last night, and what's worse, its a recurring dream. At least that's what i think. Unless it's deja vu. Which will make it even worse...:S

The dream goes like this. I just killed someone with a BIG screwdriver. I don't even know who. And then I'm running away. And then I almost get caught and I wake up. It felt so real. I woke up and my heart was pounding so fast it took some time before i could resume my sleep. If i managed to after that. I don't know anymore!! anyway i told cheeseman my dream and then he was kutuking me first bout how i go about uni killing ppl with big screwdrivers n blah blah blah. Then suddenly he offers this explanation:

Cheeseman says:
well,...
Cheeseman says:
usually if you dream you are killing sum1 its actually a representation
Cheeseman says:
of sumthing you are either tak puas with or afraid of in your waking life
Cheeseman says:
or another theory is that its actualy sumthing in yourself which you want to put behind you
Cheeseman says:
a part of your life which you want to close and get over but cant seem to


I was like...whoaaa....suddenly he makes sense! hahahha...but i dunnolah. so scary...and yes, contrary to popular belief (more like Aggie's belief), I do not have rainbow dreams or lambs jumping around fences kind of dreams. I not budak tadika la ok. Heck when i was a kid i also had a really scary recurring dream. I dunno how i got over that one. :S

Then after coming back from church I studied a bit then i couldn't tahan anymore and then went to sleep (around 12pm). Planned to wake up at 2pm but end up waking up at 4.30 pm only!! When i woke up i was like crap!! Din study finish yet! Din do moral crap (report n presentation)yet!! Din eat yet! hahaha...so after that i get up and see everyone sleeping (sorry i didn't join ya'll for lunch..too tired). Then tengok tengok cheeseman pun baru wakeup or sumthing like that. hahahahaha. And then had to do the moral crap and cuci baju and makan. Then now onli can resume studying...aihh....tonite got cast practice...gonna sing my theme song...YMCA...hahahah

that's all for today. Hopefully no more bad dreams. If not, i might need sleeping pills :S

Hmmm...

Today my hair seems abit weird. Seems to kembang abit today. Makes me feel weird. And then my face like one kind je. Aih. Too stressed d. So much to do, so lazy to do, and also not sure how to do. Aih. Den nowadays pc always lagging so wanna do work also takes a longer time. Aihhh. Den always headache onli. Duno why. Baru cure from flusorethroatfeverdepression now always headache. Den sleeping so much. Damn. Next monday got numec test. Dunnolah how. Said got application questions samo. Sei. Okla okla dowanna be so negative. Tomoro gonna be busy leh. Morning going to visit factory for manufac, then afternoon got lab, then night got Techflow, where im supposed to play the guitar. Wahahaha..karat d man...haven't played in weeks...as you can notice by the length of my nails...hahaha..so tonite have to cut d....hmmm....

Ok. Main reason im here: Apartment internet sucks and I need to download stuff.

tata~

Migration

I think I can't live in Malaysia for long. Im gonna have to migrate to somewhere where the main language is English, there are less people per square mile and they have supersonic internet speed. Now that would be a big dream eh. But who cares!! I dowanna live here anymore. Even though there's a variety of food (I'm not too picky), there's just too much drama around here. Gives me a headache. All the kiasuness, rudeness, selfishness and lack of manners just make me wanna bash up anyone who's acting that way. And not forgetting to mention the attitude people people have nowadays. Grrr. I dunno why I'm so mad all of a sudden, but this has been bothering me for a long time. I just choose not to say anything. Now i don't even say anything but I blog here. Such a scaredy cat. I just choose not to say anything to anyone because im just too bloody lazy to explain who what when where or how. Because that person might not even be listening anyway. (read previous post)

Tension tension!!!

So if you know of a country that fulfills all those points above, do let me know. I need to save up so I can move there. Hopefully they'll accept me and I can find a job. Washing dishes also I don't mind lah. As long as I can get outta this place.

ciao!

You know

what pisses me off? People. People who lie, cheat, talk to me only when they want something, people who say things they don't mean, people who talk before thinking and people who don't listen when you tell them something and then ask you to explain whatever u just spent 5 mins of ur life explaining. They think you so bloody free. What's worse is when you've explained something to them like a gazillion times and they still ask you the same bloody question. You tell me, irritating bo?? Geez.

Now you know why I'm an antisocial.

Woooo....

Too lazy to blog. Besides, im sick with flusorethroatfever so I'm kinda hot now. Not that im not hot any other day but hotter today. hahahahaha :P

So here's an excerpt from Xiaxue.blogspot.com. Hope she doesn't sue me for copying without her permission...hehehe...but i can't stop laughing everytime i read this post. It's kinda old too:


Thursday, September 07, 2006
Nonsense

I realised how old I am, when Smelly, who is 13, told me that on HIS msn list everyone had changed their nicks to include a tortoise icon for the death of Steve Irwin.

I suppose the tortoise is the closest you can get to a crocodile, the second closest being the snail , which is not close at all.

At least the tortoise kinda lives in water.

But yes, on my msn list, only about 4 people had the icon. FOUR!

I suppose if you ask any one of my old 22 year old friends why they didn't put the icon, they will give you some old people answer, like "You think I so free ah, NO NEED TO PAY THE BILLS IS IT?!"

When you meekly reply, "But putting the tortoise is nothing to do with the bills..."

they holler at you and say, "Yeah yeah only you damn free lar you don't need to work, only blog whole day!"

Just to prove their point, they put as their msn nicks "Fuck Steve Erwin and tortoises no need to pay bills is it"... Even the misspelling symbolises their oldness coz they are so jaded, they can't be bothered to remember people's names anymore.

I think it's mean, but I had to stifle a laugh when I heard how he died. I mean, of all methods to pass away! Very suay lar. Stingrays always seem so harmless and delicious with sambal sauce... until we forget why they are called STINGrays.

Hmm..I mean too bad Steve Irwin died la, but he's kinda annoying anyway...samo go and kacau all the animals...=_='. I prefer those normal documentaries where they just film the animals and then narrate. Easier on the animals and people and nobody gets stung or mauled or whatever.

So hot. And my nose keeps on leaking. Sigh. Gotta go sleep...padan muka main hujan...ahahahah...my eyes are burninggg....:S

Malu...

Funny man today...I wanted to go admin to pay my apart fees, then I forgot to bring the money to pay! The last time I forgot to bring my ID. wahahhahh. Anywya I remembered just after we left the apartment so its not too bad...hahaha

That's all. At KMC. Cause apartment connection sucks...hahaha

Ehehehe

Forgot to mention...when i was back for the holidays, i used my parent's 17inch LCD screen...which was awesome! Then when i came back here and use my 15inch LCD, it looked...so...pathetic...like a small box on my table...hahaha...sad man...

Today is Phoebe's Finish The Fruits Day. So even though I am super hungry (since last night) I am gonna eat apples only. All day. Hmmm...We'll c how it goes...hahaha

Another wasted weekend where all I did was put captions and gave ideas for our moral community project. Hahaha...added a few friends on friendster and MSN, den crapped online as usual with the same ol ppl (cheeseman, toast em,...)

Oh and I bleached the bathroom. It was so gross. It was not that gross when we came in, but we just didn't bother cleanin so it just got worse. Hahaha..now you can see that the tiles are white and not brownish :P

Tomoro got manufac quiz, and I only read 2 pages onli. Die la. But quiz onli so not too bad. hahahha...since the lect not too particular bout quizzes...

Gotta study...dang...

No more holidays...

It's been one week since I came back from holidays...no..more like 5 days...and den i din study moral properly...crapped saje...more like tipu...haha...gone la dis sem... Nothing much happened during the holidays, just ate alot and watched TV and slept alot...hahahaha...

Quite an uneventful week, except that everytime we wanted to go mamak shop (Al-Salam) it was closed!! :O They must have some problems with cleanliness...cause they were all busy cleaning up the place...hahaha...

Got so many things to do this weekend, mainly catching up on studies...hehehe..so far onli emailed captions for pics for our presentation slide show...hmmm...the other part which is finding info on punca-punca konflik perkauman is a bit of a headache...duno where to find info...aihh...

OKlah..pc laggin on and off...dunno why...gotta go surf d net! hehehe...the onli time the connection is fast is when it's the early am's...sigh..

Blogging lah now!!

Okla...due to popular request, I'm blogging. Wahahahha....damn sien. Doing another lousy numec homework in KMC. Somehow if do in apt cannot wan. But looking at the situation now, do when or where also can't finish wan. Wahahah...dam sedih.

Anyway, goin back this Friday night. After Thermo 2 test. Which I might flunk nicely. Dunno wat happenin in class. Cause thermo 1 also blur d. Wahahha...

Been havin mild headaches alot. Wondering why, but it must be because when i don't wear my contacts I strain my eyes (broke my glasses *sob sob*)...

Hungry. Later must go back eat toast 'em. Not wz lah..the bread...hahaha :P

Back to the homework *sob sob* BANJIRR!!!

Oh ya...the haze is super bad these few days...n then last nite all the mosquitoes came n bit me...ARRRGGHHH!!! NOT ENUF SLEEP AHH!!!!!!!

Still hungry.

=P

Cool stuff!!

=)
Makes you wanna dance on treadmills too :P

Weekend sleeping marathon

Been sleeping lah all weekend. So lazy. keep doin numec. So boring. Wahahahaha...

Finally watched Ice Age 2. NOt as good as the first one, but they still had plenty of laughs. Hehehehe

Very short post, because i have to keep doin numec :S

Comatose?

I wonder what it would be like to fall into a coma and then wake up 20 years later.. It would be really weird waking up 20 years later and finding out so much has changed, technology improved (it should!) and what people have been up to. The other day I read an article about a guy who met in an accident when he was 19, and woke up 20 years later! Like whoa! 20 years man! dun play play! hahahaha...wonder what he's doin now...hahaha

Monday got numec test..and im here looking over the same stuff over and over again....sien...din go PC fair oso...hahaha...

Hungry...chewed on a stick of carrot until it tasted weird :S Must go figure out what to eat for lunch...sayonara!

=)

Oh ya...forgot to add..that day at sarah's church the pastor asked me for my name. Then he said it's a nice name...hahaha...bangga giler...:P Seldom get compliments so when I get must bangga abit rite...haha...need some help with my self-esteem...:)

Pirates! Har har!

Just came back from watching Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest. It was a good movie, loads of laughs and as usual, Johnny Depp was awesome..not to mention Orlando Bloom was lookin good in the movie too...hehehe..But i prefer the first movie, maybe because the storyline was much better. Hehehe..Samo it ended with suspense so can't wait to see the next instalment :)

Oh and last weekend we went to Kuantan for Sarah's birthday party which is celebrated 2 months later...hahaha..we left late friday evening and reached at almost 11pm at her house. Then we hung around the house, chatted with her mom and then ate dinner! So late man we ate...but the food was AWESOME! heheheh....somehow home cooked food always is the best!! :D Then we went to sleep...the next morn woke up late, but sarah went n did her stuff lar...i just slept cause i was too lazy to go anywhere :P. Besides, i've been to kuantan before so nothing new :P That afternoon we slowly decorated the house with baloons and streamers...we did it really slow all afternoon...while watching a chinese game show...haha! It was called Treasure Hunter. Really fun the stuff they had to do at each station! We should play that someday! :D Ok then night came and the party started. People started coming, and the food came (Yay!) and then we set up the projector n slide thingy so that we could show a video agnes made. hehehe. It was cool, basically filled with sarah's pics, which is so sarah :P We had cake, (duh!) so i was happily eating cake before eating dinner...hahaha...suddenly nowadays i seem to wanna eat cake a lot...hmmm... see..now i wanna eat cake....cakeeee. Alot of pics were taken, by miss photographer agnes...hehe...i was just hanging around doin nothing...avoiding ppl n trying to look busy...hahaha...if i had a camera oso nevermind...sigh...

On another note, been reading blogs as usual and everytime after reading Jess's blog my eyes feel...burnt! hahaha...cause her background is bright red...and then you spend all those time staring at bright red and your eyes start screaming "No more!! NO MORE!!! AAAHHHH!!!" hahahaha...

Hmm...tomoro got lab...must do pre-lab...or else the instructor will not allow us into the lab...hahaha...let's see if he says "Hello, ladies" again this week...:P

Still no glasses so my head is like 20cm away from the comp screen....bad...very bad...

Will blog more another time...maybe when im bored and at KMC...:P